Today started out a little down. I saw myself slipping into a bit of depression all I wanted to do was stay in bed and wait for this day to be over. I had nothing planned for the day, no work, nothing till 7pm so I felt I had nothing to get up for. Finally at about 2pm I was laying in bed thinking. “what the heck am I doing? I’m watching myself slip into a bad state of depression. I have to get up and do something about this!” So I finally got myself out of bed and force myself to do something. Well some of my friends are graduating from a school of ministry here soon so I figured I would go make some graduation cards even tho making cards is one of the last things I felt like doing. So I went to the stamp room and got started, and ya know what? After about the first 30 minutes I found myself enjoying it I ended up getting 13 cards done, found out I need to make I believe 3 more. While making the cards for my friends I decided i should make some cards for the seniors in the youth ministry that are graduating as well. I need to get a hold of the youth pastor to confirm how many students we have graduating. So that’s the picture today. The cards I made
Then this evening I went to a ministry called “Fresh Start” at a different church. I have had a few people tell me about this ministry and suggest I should check it out. I had been putting it off though cause I don’t really know anyone there. Well I had a couple other people tell me about it and I told mom and she thought it sounded like a good idea. I then told a close friend about it and he really encouraged me to go check it out as well. So I finally gave in and I went this evening. I was scared of going and having to meet new people. I’m a shy person and I hate talking to people I don’t know. It’s really bad, I even hate talking to customer service people cause I don’t know them lol. So anyway, I went and right away someone I know saw me and invited me to sit with them. So that was a relief!
I guess I’ll give you a little info on what Fresh Start is. It’s a ministry program for anyone who wants a “Fresh Start” on life and freedom from issues that have been holding them back. weather it’s alcoholism, depression, been through a divorce, lost a love one, Whatever the issue. You come and you they help you process issues of the heart. The first hour of the program is testimony time where someone who has gone through the whole program shares their testimony of what they went through and how God has helped them through this program. Then the next hour you can either go into a small group session or stay in the main room for a teaching on how to be fully alive with a fresh start. In the small groups if you sign up to be in one what they do is they take you through some steps to help you process a specific issues that you need to deal with. They give you a book and your suppose to list different issues, offenses, hurts, that you feel you need to process and then they focus on one and help you to process it and pray for you. I guess in the small group they focus on one person each week. I haven’t signed up for this yet, I want to go to a couple of sessions in the main room first. I did pic up the book though and I’m scared lol I can already tell the issues I’m going to have to process first is issues I have with my family. I had thought I was going to this group to process my divorce but through tonight’s testimony and teaching they suggest you go back to the very first issues, offense, or hurt that you have and process that first because more then likely that issue deals with other issues that had followed after. UHG I really am not looking forward to processing this. But I do want help! I do want to experience freedom from these thoughts and feelings I have. It wont be easy tho. The thing I’m really scared about is I’m pretty sure one of the steps is confronting this issue. YIKES