Something I have come to realize that I didn’t know I realized till I said it this afternoon is. You have to fight for what you want. That got me thinking a lot today and it is so true especially in the world we live in. If you want to be happy in life, I think you have to fight for it. Happiness doesnt seem to just land in your lap and stay there. yes I do believe that some days are easier to be happy then others, and some people tend to be happier then others. but I believe eventually at some point everyone has to make a choice and choose to be happy. I been doing a lot of thinking lately over the past month and about my attitude on life. I could very easy sit back and become a “victim” allow bitterness to take root in my life and look at every situation in a whoa is me. Like a friend of mine and I have often said, Church is very family oriented and if your a single person, it’s very easy to feel left out. Right now a point in my life where I really have to fight is when I see happy couples with new babies. At that point I have a choice…The easy one…Get mad, not be happy for them, and throw myself a self pity party. That one is really easy and honestly takes no effort at all. Now taking that road leaves me…Down and depressed, and it allows bitterness to take root and grow, bitterness bring death. Not Good. Or i can fight. I can look at the couple and be happy for them, Be glad that they have each other and their new exciting baby and Know that God is in control of my life and he knows the desire of my heart and I will not be forgotten and choose to wait for his timing which is best and know that as I choose to fight for the right attitude, happiness will follow… now this road.. its a hard one for sure.. BUT this road brings good things. There is Blessing among this road. It may not be at the first turn, but there is a great reward for this road taken 
SO thats what has been on my mind today. I been praying and asking God to help me guard my heart, I do not want to become hard hearted and bitter. cause its been said For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. So what ever is in our heart comes out of our mouth. Something they touch on at Fresh Start.
Well it was a SUPER slow day at work… yeah thats why I had lots of time to think. Today I did the closing shift. Usually on Saturdays I do opening, but the Boss had a meeting this evening so we switched shifts. After work I came home and watched a movie with my mom. We watched “How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days” hehehe love that movie…ahh thats what got me started on attitude with this blog… this movie had screen shots of New York .. Staten Island to be specific and I started to get a little down. Saw places that my Ex and I had been and enjoyed together and started to think how I probably wont see those places again and how I missed those times and his family. Started to get sad, but decided I really dont want to go to bed crying tonight, so Im trying to think on other things now and remember that I have a bright future ahead of me.
Which makes me think of something else… I been reading the bible lately.. doing this bible in 90 days thing and well the other day I was reading about Joseph and that story really stuck out to me from all the others right now. What I like about it is, Nothing can keep Gods calling away from you. When Joseph was a little boy he had those dreams that his brothers would bow down before him and even after his brother sold him and he ended up in jail and all the wrong things that happened to him… those dreams still came to pass. So that was encouraging to me. God is in control even when your life doesn’t look like it’s going anywhere.
WELL i have typed a lot and it’s past 11pm, i have worship practice early in the morning so i better get going to bed.
